We had an absolutely fantastic topic this early morning:
"It's the quality of my life that determines my value."
My quality of life is... doing EXTREMELY better than it was about a year ago. I'm getting so very close to a personal goal I set for myself.
The new (now full time!) gig is a little "time" intrusive. It takes a bit of a bite out of my quality of life.
I did something extremely horrible last night that I will never forgive myself for. I'd worked all day and was constantly thinking about dinner that day/night. It was supposed to be pasta night. (You see, we try and plan meals out in advance)... but... when I got home, the oven was running and a frozen pizza was the meal of the night. I'd had this "vision" of a nice pasta night dinner in my head all throughout the day and I KNOW I took it out on my wife. That was not my intention. That was the older version of myself... and I don't know how to make it better. I really need to revisit Step Four.
Today's meeting was a very, very, VERY vivid reminder about how I can try even harder to make the quality of my life that much better.
I have Stef. My quality of life is complete.
My value? Being sober.
Getting so close to one year! I do it... one day at a time.
