Today's title comes from what is hand-painted calligraphy-style on the wall of the room I have my daily Inpatient sessions. I spend a lot of time looking at that while the others are talking. I like it. Possibility indicates a way out of this morass that my life became. (NOTE! Past tense!)
We as a group finished off the assignment from last week. We will be losing some of the court-assigned people in the next couple of days. I wish them all nothing but the best... but they have a much harder road to tread... (heroin and all that.) I wish them well!!!
I did take a slight bit of offense this morning when Iggy asked all of us how things were going since yesterday. When it came to my turn, I said that I was feeling particularly proud of myself for two weeks sober. Now initially, he said that was great and to continue what I am doing... BUT... out of the other side of his mouth, he also mentioned that we as addicts shouldn't misconstrue sobriety from simply being "dry". As I said, I took offense to that and will most probably unload on him during my personal meeting with him later this week.
WTF?!?
I get better feedback from my friends in AA. I didn't drink a drop. I have maintained a level of sobriety (for me!) that has been far beyond what I have experienced so far... and... it doesn't make a difference?! At least to Iggy apparently. "Recovery is more important than being dry"...said Iggy.
In AA, those two work hand in hand.
I will also mention that he didn't ride "C"s ass as much as mine, and he had a year going. Again... WTF?!?
It was a very good session. I will speak to Iggy about a matter or two. I just felt it odd, is all. You say one thing and then contradict yourself with a separate comment.
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