Due to a drastic change in weather, I had to forego the earlier afternoon meeting I normally attend, and had to wait for a vehicle to get to the meeting. I made it with a few moments to spare. This normally would've been a "Sobriety Week in Review" meeting (a new one/format for me) where we'd all talk about the week we've had.
However, a guy was there tonight that had barely twelve hours of sobriety... (OR... a new word I learned today... "DRIETY")... so a vast majority of the meeting was talking to this older guy who had the shakes something fierce. He was NOT in a good place or frame of mind. We did a quick round robin of Step 1... but it was hard to tell how much he was taking in. As we were leaving, I did notice that the chairperson and another gentleman celebrating 25 years stuck around to continue speaking with him. They had time before the 8PM meeting took place, so I hope he got something out of their encouragement.
Takeaways from the meeting:
1. Drinking stopped being fun and ultimately became troublesome. I relate to that. But I've moved past that and I think it shows. It was never fun the way I was doing it, nor should it ever have been fun.
2. As I said earlier, I learned a new word tonight... DRIETY. I think that and my ego were what initially prevented me from having the program stick that first time around. I wasn't actively working the Steps during those four-ish months... sure I wasn't drinking... but I also wasn't entirely sober, either. I was dry. Dry and not working the Steps. This is why things are MASSIVELY different this time around.
I am doing well in counseling. I am actively working almost all of the 12 Steps on a daily basis... and have foregone driety for contented sobriety. That's the word that springs to mind. Content. I'm not thinking solely of myself these days. I covered the 12th Step tonight in offering my assistance and thoughts with this new person... so something is different within me. :-)
One day at a time. One day at a time.
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